Loss

Just got off the phone with a very old friend. The guy called me and said,' Sam - bad news'. We both go back long - i mean really long. Sometimes its not the time that matters but the lack of it that brings people close.

I stayed over at his place for a month when my landlord suddenly decided to throw us out (lets leave that for a separate blog shall we??). I remember his mom shouting out his name and this dude will just get up, scratch himself silly, come down from the first floor rubbing his eyes and bum together and plonk himself on the table. And right there - his mom will give him freshly cut, nice and sweet mangoes. The dude was totally crazy about mangoes.

Aunty was a lady who was all in awe of her 2 sons. Loved her Daughter in law. Lived alone in Pune and was loved by her neighbors.

She passed away this 14th due to 3 massive heart attacks.

I sooooo wanted to meet her before either of us went off. She always used to pull my leg cause i was living so close but never went to meet her. i saw her last almost 2 years back. I got married and she was soo keen to meet my wife. She considered her like her own daughter in law (she was so confident this bloke wont get a girl !)

i miss her - i truly do. I wish she can just come back so she can meet me and my wife. I want to tell her i'm sorry. I ache with pain when i think of this dude. I don't think i can imagine how he sees the world around him.

Sometimes priorities can blind you and make you forget the most important things in life. I am sure she's gone to a better place. She's gonna be happier. I hear she has this fundoo bro up there who can totally crack anyone up. Filled with laughter, i wish her soul rests in peace and i will remember her for as long as i live. She's just like my own mom.

Long time

MAN i am blogging after a long time ! I don't even remember when i last logged in to write some philosophical crap.

I think the reasons are many - but primarily because as any other mortal - i fail to prioritize. Because I fail at this basic level of human psyche, i automatically start clamoring around hoping to complete all tasks and eventually, with evidently no fault of mine, fail to do any of them correctly.

To put things in perspective, Time is an important aspect of life and because you unfortunately have finite moments left with you, its imperative you try, if not actually do, make a list of your most important tasks and people and map them to your current lifestyle, financial situation, time availability, working hours, physical shape, etc. This is the only way you get a pattern of effective timing of your tasks and how you should ensure you end of having a good life.

When i am done with this - i will be 80 with no teeth and no energy left in me to move 'important' muscles. This isn't a self pity cause - just some random thoughts from my cerebral cortex.

Will hopefully drive more sense in to my words, actions and intentions from today.